Today someone reminded me that it would be a good idea to post an update to this blog. Since going off the last of the medication in May I have been doing very well. One awesome thing is that I am no longer paranoid. I can walk around outside, take the bus, sit in coffee shops all without feeling like someone is waiting in the bushes to ambush me. I cannot express how liberating this feels. I’ve lost twenty pounds with another 5-10 yet to go. I’ve started running and love it. My therapist was after me for six years to run but I was always too exhausted by the Depakote to even attempt it. Now I wake up in the morning and am excited to get out there. It’s been slow going but I was able to run for 3-1/2 miles the other day without stopping to walk – a new personal best.

My memory has finally improved and I no longer forget where I am or what I was doing or how to get someplace familiar. I still get tired more easily than most people but this is improving. The thing that hasn’t gone away is the general anxiety that has plagued me the majority of my life. This tells me that (a) there are still unresolved issues that need resolving and (b) that I need to chill the heck out. I still avoid caffeine and limit sugar which helps a lot. Running also seems to help keep the anxiety at bay. Still working on this.

This music video has absolutely nothing to do with anything but it is fun. Finnish folk band Värttinä. The song is called Seelinnikoi.